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Catcher In the rye journal entries * Be the main char snatcher from your novel. * Creeat fictional daybook entries near each chapter. * Each gateway you request to create verb booster in offset printing person in the rank of view of the main character. * accomplishable Ideas intimately-nigh the penetration You can save w entrust on happened to the character in that chapter, and thrust the character reflect on the rasets that happened, what he/she would necessitate d iodine differently, or what that character questions any possible connections to family, values, historical events or prior events.Dairy entry 1 Hello, Im here in my rest headquarters in which I came for therapy. I dont au whereforetic on the whole t gray-headedy want to talk some my early life. solely I to baffle mention D. B my aged(a) sidekick that is a Hollywood writer which I believe that he is solitary(prenominal) meddling for fame. My lifes a complete bundle I disunite you. I was at te nnerdance centime Prep second in Pennsylvania. moreover because I was non ready to apply myself, I flunk four of my five courses frankincense I will n incessantly come back, thats for sure. I rec any t middle-aged I was in that location over facial expression the football field which I had no s decl be in being on that point were Penny plays its annual grudge.I was there because I was supposed to be in New York because Im the manager of the fencing team up further I accidents lost the teams utile on the subway and all, embarrassely I rattling dont cargon. I have authentically steady-going memories course of instruction subjects that happen there exclusively I sure had to leave. I remember having to go and word good base on balls to Mr.. Spencer because he toy witht a stack to me, although his smoke kills me. Dairy entry 2 So I go and speak to Mr.. Spencer and OMG he is in decrepit conditions. As for forever he was hard to lecture me on my academic failures and his quotes most all this crappy things.I do hate him when he told me that he had flunked me. I couldnt handle on more(prenominal) word I that hate to be lectured. So hypothecate what I did? (Obviously not try to rut that accusitions). Yeah baby I unexpended to my dorm inhabit. Dairy entry 3 So I was there sprightliness in Johannesburg hall, reading my book with my hunting hat when I was interrupted by Ackley. Btw, he is a student who lives b determineing door who is terrible hygiene when it comes to his teeth and is ever so making up lies on how energiseual active he is. While he was trying to mug me, Seedeater enters my inhabit and mentions somewhat kind of designation he is having.You are believably peculiaritying who Seedeater is, so yea Seedeater is the one good looking tall and attractive goose, who I don t demand along wherefore always lay to handle sexy misfires. diary entry 4 So I am there following(a) to that flick talk to him succession he s haves and whistles the Son of India with his piercing whistles that never tune. Just for the saki of it I have to vocalise UK I hate how his razor is always so dirty. He is quite a attractive though. Seedeater all the emergent look ats me to write his English part about whatsoever matinee idol dike descriptive thing and bullyer then writing him a composition was that I had to not stick all the commas in the right impersonate. Why? Because he was a lumpen bastard that didnt do well at all in his English class. and then I started tap dancing for the sake of it. after(prenominal) a bit of doing dim things to overprotecther I asked him who his date was and he wouldnt sort me for season, then after a couple of guesses he told me he was dating Jean Gallagher. His date was Jane Gallagher. Yeses My Jane Gallagher. I talked to Seedeater about her for a mend and told him to send her my regards and to no tell her I got kicked out. and so Ackley entered the room once more. I approximate this was the rattling first time I was glad to visualize him and set there touching his dirty face until dinner time.Dairy entry 5 We were their having the a asseverate(prenominal)(p) meal as any Saturday nighttime the same steak. When we got out of the dining room we got about three inches of snow in the ground. I didnt have zip to do so me and my friend center and Ackley resolute to go to the movies interchangeable an old couple of gays. except kind of we went and ate some hamburgers. When we came back we handed to arrayher for a period and as always Ackley was always saying his stories about a misfire he should have had sex with. After he left wing wing my room I stared writing the composition.I had no idea what to write about entirely then all the sudden I d internal-combustion engined I was divergence to write about Allies baseball helping hand my litter brother that died. He had read head and was terrifically scin bankating. In fact the most intelligent of my family. That efficiency probably be because he was left handed some believe that if you are left handed you are smarter. I love him and I loved to play with him. God, he was a gracious kid. I slept in the garage the night he died and broke all the windows in there. Anyways, thats what I wrote Straddle RSI composition about and it was about ten-thirty when I faultless it.I was board so I Just sit down there looking through the window. Diary entry 6 I am stuck here in my rest room and its quite hard to remember e actuallything that appended simply I do remember that when Stalled got back from hid date and proverb the composition he hated it. He utter it was supposed to be about something god dam descriptive and that what I did. however no, he had to grunt about it so I to a faultk the paper and ripped it. I was no actually glad I did that however I had to do it. I was rattling mad at him. I lit on a stub Just to bother Stalled, he hated when wad brok e the rules.He sit down there cutting his stinky nails and said sit about his date. I remember he was quit late. After a spot of my inquire he stared fooling with me and I told him to cut it out. He told me he duty toured in a car. In the basket ball coaches car. He said he gave her the time. We fought for a firearm, I fight in which I didnt have to get into because it ended with him school term on my God dam breast and my nose was quite bleeding. I was so bucking mad. When the hell was he departure to stop giving filles the time, especially to girls kindred Jane? I sentiment the probably Ackley heard the fight so I crossed the curtains and went to his room.After all I am so glad that I had Ackley, he is soulfulness I can go to when I am down and he is going to run across me. Somemultiplication Seedeater is not more than a pain in the ass. Diary entry 7 Hello Diary so I went into Cackles room and turned on the elucidations and Ackley woke up. I was very down I swear, I lied there in Eels whop, thats Cackles roommate. He had gone home for the week end. That room stinted , I mingy after all it was Cackles room. I Just started label Ackley a prince and a gentleman and he real was. He asked me what the fight was about scarce I was a very long story.I sat there and thought about Jane and all. It drove me crazy. any time I thought about that I Just cherished to Jump of the window. Ackley re creative thinkered me that Ely would flip if he came in and saw me in is bed except I couldnt contend less. After a while Ackley slept and I was trying not to cipher about the situation still I Just couldnt, it unploughed poking my brain. After I while I heard infatuated Seedeater come back from the can and go to the room. I was opinion about joining to monastery and asked Ackley about it but then decided it was not my thing. I jabbing in Im not that religious.I got up from Eels bed and straited toward the door. I decided to leave this atmosphere in this come in was driving crazy. I didnt complete if this would be a good choice but I was unhinged and tired. On my way stopped to say good bye o Ackley. I packed my binge and left everybody was asleep and the corridor was empty. I Just valued to leave Penny thats all I wanted to do. Diary entry 8 I took the worst decision I could have ever taken, walk to the station I go to bed it wasnt too far but I was freezing. Every part of me hated that lawsuit of cold but it was too late to call a cab.So I got to the station and only had to wait about ten minutes to get a train. I get board in trains and I was opinion about buying some magazines but then I hard-bitten I was not even going to read them because the situation I was in. I Just didnt feel worry it. So the train arrived and this brothel keeper set next to me. The unanimous train was empty but no, she had to fag end right next to me. Just for the sake of it She look at my bags and saw the Penny cookery sticker so she told me her son Ernest Morrow goes to Penny prep and asked me if I knew him. I did grapple him but he was a Jerk and a bastard he was a perfect definition of a accusations.Rather than me sitting there and telling her what a bastard her son was I sat there and I lied about what a good boy her son was an how sociable he was. After a while I asked her if she wanted to get a cocktail with me. What was I opineing, this woman know my age. Im not fooling anyone. She denied the invitation. accordingly she asked why I was here and I lied about having this little tumor operated. I realized I was lying a little bit too much so I Just started reading my timetable. I was hoping she didnt ask anything else because I know I can lie for a while. I know its pervert but its so pleaseing.Diary entry 9 As soon as I got to Penn satiation I matte deal giving individual a buzz. I felt lonely I thought about calling several tidy sum but it was too late at night. I was afraid if I called my little sister phoebe my mommy would pick up the phone and notice it was me. Everyone had an excuse for why not to call them so I ended up not calling everybody. It was quit depressive though. So I got in a cab and ask the taxi driver to drive me to some goofy place and what he did was to get mad and I realized he was kind of a bastard so I Just told him to drive me to Edmond.I asked him to stay with me for a while, yeah that how lonely I was and he said he couldnt. I got to Edmond and stigmatize in, when straight up to my room and UN packed and all. That hotel was unspoilt of perverts you could tell by only chit-chating through the window. Sex is something I dont ally understand. Its kind of something extremely hot and UN heritable. I some for a while as I always do but I dont know why because I know its harmful but I even so do it. I was feeling horse so I called this girl up that no a where but quit sexy. She kind of wrack my planes down but what the hell.Whatever. Diary entry 1 0 If you didnt know I hate to go to bed when I am not tired. So I was no tired at all and it was not that light so I went down to the lavender room where they had a club. I was genuinely missing phoebe. I am a very mushy computed axial tomography rope let me tell you. So I went down to he Lavender room and stood there for a while and I order something but no Im no aged enough for the accusations that attended me so I had to order coco. For the first time in my life I see the club corner young women alone. One was k, the other both were horrible.So I invited the cute one to dance to Buddy Dinners horrible practice of medicine but talking to her you could notice why she was alone. She was a kind of stupid retard. Then I came over to the table where they were and talked to all three for a while. They talked about famous people and pretty much the same thing the pretty one told me that they had seen this famous guy named Peter Lore. Girls my friend.. .Girls can drive you crazy. Th ey talked about where they work and many crap. Then they said they had to leave. Their names where Bernice Krebs or Crabs something interchangeable that , the two ugly ones name where Marty and Lavender.It was a sedate night though the club was not awesome but it was something. Diary entry 11 Jane Gallagher in my mind once more. sawbucking Seedeater. I remember the whole day of when I met her and it was all because of a stupid Doberman Pinscher pooping on my mothers lawn and all. I hated when she was crying and I remember seeing her crying next to the swimming pool at the club. It was all like in the movies when a prince see a princess crying and then its all romantic and block. Yeah, that kind crap. She always read and I loved to see her reading.I still have the photograph in my head if when I was showing her Allies baseball mitt that had all the poetry because I knew she loved poetry. We were close to kissing one day but she didnt let me. I always thought of Jane like a diffe rent kind of girl. Any way that was what I was recovering while sitting in the sticking lobby chair. I thought that I knew she was not going to let him even get to first base but I was not actually that sure at all. The lobby was so depressing that I only got up to my room and sat down. I was quite board I tell you.So I went down to the lobby again and got a cab that drove me to Ermines night club down at Greenwich Village. D. B uses to go there. Ernie is a oversized black fat guy who plays the piano. And he kills me, he think his an all star artist but he truly stinks that the actual integrity about the situation. Diary entry 12 The cab who brought me there was a freeing sticking old little cab and the taxi driver was all impatient guy. Like all other cab drivers. Im sick and tiered of all theses god dam taxi drivers I compulsion a car. I mean, taxi drivers are not even persons, they act like animals sometimes.So I go again and ask him what do the ducks do when the lagoon in central park freezes and he has no bucking idea. Then we stars to get all passed and then I ask him what fish do. I really make him think about that, really made him think about all these things. Btw his name was Hurwitz. Anyway, I finally got to Ermines and what I embellish old Hurwitz told me, If I was a fish, Mother Natured take care you, wouldnt she? , you dont think them fish would die when it gets to winter? I think he might have been the touchiest guy Vive ever meet.So I went into Ermines I dont know why still but I was there and sat down like always they asked me for my age and I sat down on a table way on the corner on the back of the bar. The place was abounding of people clapping for the wrong thing like Ernie contend the piano. Many ugly girls that I believe have it tough. All the sudden I saw Lillian Simmons. This is a girl my brother was dating a long time ago. I talked for a while with her and she asked me to go with her but I was not really in the way, Vive actu ally should have gone. But you could see the interest she had in me she was not thanks to me, was because of my brother.She clearly has an interest in my brother still. Diary entry 13 So I walked back to the hotel. Not that I felt like walking but I certainly didnt fell like taking another stupid cab with another stupid taxi driver. So I walked cardinal blocks. It remembered me of the time when I left Pence Prep and I walked to the train station. I was missing my gloves, it was god dam freezing. If I knew what accusations have stolen my gloves back at Pence I would kiss their ass believe me Im kind of a color guy and all. Well after all I might not be all yellow and occlude I manly Just one who doesnt leaping a damn about anything.Finally I get to my hotel and in the elevator the elevator guy tells me if I want a hook up that he could send me one so I was very exited it was going to be my first time. Tough I had quite a kitty of chances to loose my virginity. So I went up and g ot all ready. After I while I didnt even feel like it. The prom is I get really sorry for them. I mean some dont know that they are even doing. After a while of practically doing anything with her, because as I said I felt like sit. I thanked her and gave her five bucks, but no. That accusations told me it was ten.The elevator dude had said five. So I told her to leave with the five and eave me alone. Diary entry 14 I was sitting in my chair up at my room. heater some cigarettes and thinking about past events in my life when all the sudden Bam Bam, someone was knocking my heat was really hard at the moment. It was sunny and Maurice charging me the bucking five dollar I apparently owed, but no one told me that. I said I didnt owe anything but what for? It only passed him more. He threatened me to tell my parents that I spent the night with a where. So sunny went and looked for my wallet.He Maurice snapped his finger in my you know. And then punched me in the underpin they got the g od am five dollars and left the hell of there. I stayed in the room for about an hour taking a shower and all. I got to bed and finally got some got dam sleep. All I felt was like suicide of Jumping out the window. Diary entry 1 5 I didnt sleep long. I was very hungry the know time I had eaten g was those hamburgers with Ackley and Brassard. Vive probably instead of wasting my bullion in some stupid woman in a stupid club at a stupid launders room I should have spent some in food.So I Just smoked a cigarette and thats it. I called Sally and we made an appointed to meet each other under the clock at the Baltimore at two. So yeah I made a date with her. So I got into a stupid cab again and went to grand central station. I check my wallet and Im not as packed as before though my father is quite wealthy that it not an excuse of why should I be throwing money to the sky and all. My mother hasnt felt to healthy since allelomorph died that another reason not to tell them that I got expe lled form Penny Prep. So I got to the grand and took a train where I met some god old nuns and stuff.One of them thought English classes and I talked to her for a while since English was the only subject I had not flunked. After a while they ere trying to find out if I where catholic. I gave them ten bucks I wanted to overstep them more. They wouldnt let me tough. Well, whatever I pick out money for tickets and stuff. God dam money is always a mess and stuff. Diary entry 16 Hey, so I got there and got my eat but it as around noon and stuff. I made the assignment with shot at around noon so I had nothing to do and went for a walk. I tell you, I could go on miles and miles walking and never get tired.The nuns were in my head. To me middling with you I do not imagine anyone that I know doing that kind of charity, probably my mother. But my mother is not that Christian after all I think so. Then I see this family walking down the street seeing everything around and I caught a lit tle girl singing. I as well as saw a family with a mom a dad and a little boy that sang beautiful. He was singing that song If a body catch a body coming through the rye. Then I was kind of board and I thought maybe I game old Jane a buzz but I was no in the irritability to talk with her god dam mother.Im really sullen guy. So I went ahead and bought some phonies tickets to a phonies show and stuff witch I knew sally would like. I hate shows but I knew old Sally would like the stupid show. All the sudden I came up with this lousy idea to look for Phoebe I dont merely know why I wanted to look for her but I did, my idea to talk to a little girl which I tough would know her was very prominent I looked like kid of a pedophilia. Anyways the girl told me she might be at the museum and thus I got there. And then I got all tragicomical or gifted o I dont know what was actually.When I tough about phoebe and stuff in the museum and looking at the animals and stuff Indians made in anc ient times. I remember all those classes we talked about Columbus and all the stuff Isabella impart him dough to buy ships and all. I mean I loved the god dam museum. I can remember all the time I went in here. I Just saw everything and imagined her seeing the same things I saw and being different every time. It Just made me nostalgic. Diary entry 17 so it was about time to go to my date and all and then I got there and all touts stupid girls sitting there I mean It was probably because it was time for vacations and all.You could see on there face that they would probably all marry stupid guys. Then I saw Sally coming to me. I dont know if it was the relate on seeing someone I knew finally or that I if I really felt love in facial expression me. I mean I could really feel the love flowing in the air. And I told her I loved her and all but of course I lied, but after all I meant it. So we went to see the stupidest play ever which she enjoyed. When we were coming out of the play and all some stupid guy she told me she knew came up to us and was all flirting and stuff, you could see over his array that he was a very rich guy.After she had the idea to go ice skate and all so we went and we fell and all. We looked awesome and all but in the end we didnt even know how to sake. When we finished skating we sat down and talked for I while, I have to admit it I talked al lot of sit to it UT I meant it you know. I meant it. Everything that had to do with marrying her and living together and love and all I said it. I told her something about moving to Vermont and cabin camps and everything. The all the sudden this words came out of my mouth, botch give me a royal pain in the ass, if you want to know the truth. She started to cry and all then I was bucking afraid of her god dam father which hated me so damn much but whatever then she left telling me not to take her home but whatever who cares. After all I really do not meant what I tell her but whatever she need to be apt and stuff I dont care. Tough I meant when I asked about marrying her I still dont care. Diary entry 18 So when I left the skating rink I felt hungry and stuff and ate something. I thought about giving Jane another buzz to take her dancing and all because I knew she was a great dancer.I knew as well she liked the type of man that had zero brain and a lot of muscles. Which she had had inferiority complex and stuff. Its hard for me to understand girls I mean they say sit, a lot of sit. If they like a guy then they discipline him as the type of guys that had inferiority complex and if they dont like the guy they ay he had inferiority complex as well. What the hell happens to girls. Its so hard for me to understand them, sometimes I prefer not to even think about them. Anyway I do not regret giving old Jane a buzz because she didnt even answer.So I called my old friend and stuff which I really liked and all. He was very smart by the way. He told me he could not meet with me so I w ent to the radiocommunication city movie and saw this hellhole bored thins that ended up with everybody laughing after all the drama and stuff. I recommend you not to see it because it is bucking bored. So we meet at this calm down lace and stuff after dinner and all. While I walked to the place and all I thought about war and all. I have no mite why. Anyways it reminded me of D. B my brother, we has in the unremitting army for a while.He said the army was full of bastards and stuff. I started to remind me of Ackley and Seedeater in the army with me. D. B hated the army but still loved the bucking book of The Great Gatsby and stuff. Tough I liked it too. Im so glad they invented the freaking atomic bomb whenever they explode it again I would be the volunteer who sat on it. I actually dont know why I think that but whatever. Diary adit 19 So I got to the bar and all, up at sacristan Hotel and I star to think about share and what an amazing guy he really is, his big and mature a nd stuff.He is three historic period older than me and studies at Columbia University. Back when I was at Whatnot teach Luck was the most amazing dude ever. He talked to us about hooking up and sex and stuff. Though I still think he is a phony. So he got to the place and all it was cool and all. I tried pocking his mind into talking to me about some sex stuff but he was not that into that. I think he was probably ashamed or something I dont really know what was it. He probably had gown now and leaves the taboo or whatever people call it behind. Anyway got really passed and left the bar.He was saying that I need some psychoanalysis sit. His dad was a psychoanalyst and all, I wonder if he had ever done one to his son. I dont care if he got annoyed by my questions an all I at least had someone to get entertained with. Diary entry 20 So Luck left the bar but I didnt really care I Just sat around and kept getting drunk. I dont really know why I wanted to get drunk anyhow. I at least wa nted to get some girl from the bar to look at me but I was drunk as hell. So called the waiter to go ask a girl something for me but he probably didnt ask because it was bobbies he didnt care.People Just dont give others your massage. It makes me flip every time people do that. Just like Jane and Seedeater he didnt give my god dam massage to her, and the waiter at Ermines bar did the same sit. Cmon people So I paid and everything and went out of the bar because I felt like giving old Jane a buzz again, I was drunk as buck you know. I went inside the phone cell to call her and all but I was not in the mood so I called old Sally Hayes. I dialed about twenty dollar bill number before I dialed the erect one. I was DRUNK I tell you.So I went on with Sally and her grandma and I made a show out of me and all she kept saying me was to go home and all. I wish I would not have ever called her. By that time and the level of alcohol in my head I didnt even know where I had to be so I walk stra ight to the park where I went to see the ducks in the lake. I had a hard time finding the god dam lake, when I got there the ducks were not there. It was damn cool, I was freezing. I thought maybe I would have died of pneumonia and all. I thought of the bastard that would visit me. I desire someone would dump me in the river and all.Because who really wants to be in the graveyard all dead and all with flowers in your belly. After all I decided to go see phoebe I really deep in thought(p) her. I had spent a lot of money since I left Penny so I walked home. It was freezing and by then I was not that drunk. Diary entry 21 I am cocksucker crazy, I have no idea what I problem is. The point is that I had the best brake ever. So I got home and Pete the regular guy thats always there was not here. There was this new guy I believe. So I needed a way to get up to my apartment so I said to the guy I needed to get to the Dickenss.He told me they were up on the urethane floor in a party. He told me to stay and wait. I couldnt Just stay and wait So I came up with a story about how I had this bad leg and it had to be in a certain position and all. So finally he felt pity for me and took me up so I Just waited till the elevator closed and instead of going to the Dickenss side I turned to my nominate. So I opened up with my severalize and all and then I smelled the smell of my house, I could feel I was home. I sneaked in I knew the maid couldnt hear me because when she was little her brother stuck a straw right up her ear and all.I knew that if I fey anything my mother could hear me she had the lightest sleep ever, the straight opposite of my dad. So I went looking for Phoebe and found her sleeping in D. BBS room. She was there laying on the bed and all. I really missed her I loved old Phoebe a lot. I always say kids look lovely when they are a sleep. I love them all. So I sat there reading Phoebes stuff that was up o D. BBS huge desk. Anyways, I woke her up, honestly s he is not very rough to wake anyways. So she wakes up and holds me and hugs e. Shes a really affectionate girl though.Then I gave her a kiss. We talked for quite a lot of time. About everything in the world. Then I found out my mother and my father were not home but they werent going to be home any way. I asked her if B. D was going to be home for Christmas but she didnt know. She told me something about a play he was writing and all I didnt really care at all. Then all the sudden she knew that got kick out. She knew because she smart people I tell you, shes damn smart. She told me about one hundred times that dad was going to kill me. I kind of knew but didnt think about it that much.I was talking to Phoebe which told me that I didnt like anything. I really didnt after all. I Just kind, like only kind like throng Castle this guy who Jumped out of a window back at Election. She then told me what I would like to be when I cause up and in a summary of all I said I wanted to be the C atcher in the rye and all. This comes from a poem by Robert Burns. Diary entry 23 Mr.. Anatolian is very nice I mean he told me that late at night I could go to his house, in which I actually planned to sleep there. I told him I had flunked out of Penny I dont know why, I Just felt like to tell him.He was about the best teacher I ever had. Mr.. Anatolian was pretty young tough, was only a few years older then B. D. He was the one to pick up James back at Election when he flew out the window. So I stayed there with Phoebe and all we talked about her dresses and her plays and everything. We were then and then she told me to shut away and all then I heard me parents come in, then I ran inside the closet and all and she came in told talked to Phoebe for a while then she left. So I went out of the closet when she left and decided I had to go. That was the exact moment to go so I put my shoes on and left.Phoebe asked me where would I stay and I planned to stay at Mr.. Anatolian house. T hen I started to cry and all and Phoebe was panic-struck and all but I Just cried and cried and all. Then I left and actually it was harder to sneak in then to sneak out. Tough I really didnt care if I got caught after all. Diary entry 24 So I went to Mr.. Antagonist apartment and all it was this very stylish apartment. Mr.. Anatolian was friends with B. D and when B. D went to Hollywood he said the someone like D. B had no business going there. Let me tell you I had to walk because I didnt want to spend Phoebes Christmas dough.So I got to their house and it was full of sit all over the place, it had glasses all over the place and dishes with peanuts. Mrs.. Anatolian didnt even want me to see her because she was all ugly and all. So we sat there and talked sit and all we has lecturing me as always and all. He asked a question or a pedagogical question as he said and from then on we would stop lecturing me. So Mrs.. Anatolian brought Coffey and then went back to sleep and all. Mr.. Anatolian was drinking and he was quite a drunk bastard. He told me something that quiet scared me, he said that the sad talked to my father and my father was worried about me.He told me he didnt even know what to say to me, and frankly I understood him. So he lectured me a lot while I was tired. So told me how applied I had to be at school. He told me something I had never thought about, he said,youre no the first person who was ever confused or frightened and even sickened by human behavior. And that my friend, it the complete truth. He was really drunk by then. He told me as well, that only educated and scholarly man are able to contribute something valuable in the world and he really meant that those are the valuable records the come behind a man of that kind.I was really sleepy let me tell you, all the sudden I yawned, it was very rude I know, I dont know why I did that man. So he kind of notice I was sleepy he didnt get mad or anything, but after all I was happy but a little ashamed. So while he flash-frozen up the couch and all he asked me for my woman a sally and Jane and all those separate stories which I was really not in the mood to talk about. The couch was too short let me tell you but I dint mind. He told me something about finding out the size or your mind and all. So then he left me there and I slept, I was really sleepy so I slept right away.Then all the sudden the weirdest sit happened to me. I felt something rubbing my head in the middle of the night and it as old bastard Mr.. Anatolian rubbing my bucking head. So woke up as fast as I could and got all my things on and left. He followed me until the elevator and it was all creepy and stuff. I stared sweating and I really didnt even know what to say. That kind of stuff happened to me a lot and I cant stand it. Diary entry 25 After I left Mr.. Antagonist house it was damn cold outside and I took the sub down to Grand Central to take my bags, I really dont feel like saying much but let me te ll you that I slept there.After all I should have probably stayed at his house because he was ere nice to me talking about finding the size of your mind and all. So I was Just there sitting down and I started to read this magazine that talked about hormones and cancer and sit so I figured I was most likely getting cancer and was paranoid as hell. So I went out to look for some breakfast and I walked trough the street it was all Christmas. This two guys bucking with a Christmas tree made melange and while I laugh I closely vomit. I felt sick but I Just kept looking around for the nuns I had meet but I couldnt see them. So I walked up to Fifth Avenue.I was sweating like a bastard ND I dont like to admit it but you could say I was hallucinating because I could talk to my brother Allele in the moment. So then while walking an awesome idea came to my mind, I decide I will never go home again and I will go far away I could give old phoebe her Christmas dough she landed me and then leave. To be honest to you right now, I dont know what the heck I was thinking. I was thinking I could go far west and work at a bollocks station and marry a deaf-mute because I would pretend to be one too, I had no clue what the heck was I thinking I Just made up this damn sorts of my life in my head.So I guess I could go to old phoebes school and take her a note telling her to meet me at the museum to give her back her dough. So thats Just what I did, I knew exactly where her school was because I had canvas there was well. Point is I got there and all and I went to the receptionist at school and all and the little time I was there at school I saw about a million Buck you writing everywhere around the school. It pieces me off. Mostly because I dont want old Phoebe reading that kind of things, it really does pips me. Any ways I Just left and I had time to kill still till I meet